Solitary.

I want to pen down everything I'm feeling in a notebook sometimes. I actually bought a notebook(a super cute one btw) but I've decided to use it for school purposes. I cannot write about my personal issues in there, there will always be people with itchy hands who'd grab hold of it anytime without asking so... no.

Anyhoo, I just spent an hour attempting to practice mathematics. Bad move. Now I feel like shit because I can't solve a single fucking question.

Think happy thoughts.

It was a pretty long day in school today. Here's some pictures that I took during Art.

And this is Alex and I fighting with a broom and a dustpan after school. 

                     

I feel so sulky. Listening to the song I'd always listen to whenever I feel crappy...





Help, I have done it again. 
I have been here many times before.
Hurt myself again today. 
And the worst part is there's no one else to blame. 
~
Ouch I have lost myself again. 
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found.
Yeah I think that I might break.
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe.

Ending here with a final quote from Skins.

"You can put any face behind a mask. But be careful, because someone else might be pretending."


xoxo 

Different flowers from the same garden.

Oh hi, unflattering picture of me in school again. Sorry I got bored, I'm not a P.E person. 

Bad way to start off my morning - got sent to the discipline centre and I literally got yelled at(bitch spit saliva on my face whilst doing so by the way), "YOU FAILED EVERY ASPECT OF THE ATTIRE AND GROOMING CHECK!" I was sooooooooo pissed off because I didn't dye my god damn hair during the holidays and so the fuck what if I did anyway?! Does the Earth stops rotating or what? Stupid rules... They were wasting time in there by giving me bobby pins and calling my dad, I wanted to go for my math class which is pretty fucking important to me because I AM HORRIBLE AT MATH AND I NEED ALL THE HELP I CAN GET. Ugh. 

Negative thoughts aside, I went to meet (yep, my long-lost twin hahahahaha) Ting Lin after school. Which makes me happy because I like whining about my school to somebody from another school. 

"Wah then that *inserts nasty name to describe your discipline master/mistress* gave me detention, 2 hours you know anot?! Last year's detention is like what, half an hour??

"I KNOW RIGHT?! I got caught today too. $@#%!$^@%*&^@&"

"YES OMFG I FEEL YOU!!! MY SCHOOL IS SO LAME, DO YOU KNOW THAT *insert all the lame stuff related to my school*"

"MY SCHOOL *insert even lamer stuff her school does here*"

"Wah you school really lame, really." 

I can complain to her for like hours lah!! We went to Subway & Starbucks at NEX anyway. And then we went to the library to study take nonsensical pictures and talk and talk and talk and laughed like crazy... *fingers crossed we won't get stomped*

There's more where that came from but I really need to go revise my work and read and go to bed now... OH THE PAINS OF BEING A NERD. Hahahaha. Have a bitch-free day in school tomorrow every one. :-* 

Oh and ending this post with a hilarious GIF of me levitating in the library... 

xoxo

I'd rather be a nerd.

It's the second day of school... meh. It was not as horrific as I - or rather, all of us, I presume - thought it would be. But I can't help but to feel like a zombie in class, a zombie craving sugar all the time. I need candies to keep me awake in class... which is why I bought a pack of them just now. Oh and I bought another math assesment book. (math is still drivin me nuts... but I am so bloody determined to improve... I wanna be able to tell people, "Oh I was horrible at Math, I used to fail all the time, but then I worked hard, and look what I got?".. sigh, I still can dream right?)

Oh well, oh well. Going off to complete my routine of studying/revising, relaxing(which is tweeting and whatsapping or texting my friends), reading and then sleeping. Be happy. xoxo

p/s: I might blog about "Things That Annoy Me" during the weekends when I'm free or something. Hah.

Numb.

School was boring. I'm trying my best to stay attentive during lessons. It is a good thing that our Geography classes are now "seperated" with the other class because I can concentrate better when the class is small. But my teacher wants to put me to the back seat because I'm ostensibly "selfish" for not giving other people a chance to sit in front and get the attention that they need. I've always been taught to look on the bright side of things. Sitting at the back means I can reply my whatsapp/text messages quicker now.

I don't know why I'm getting so frustrated and annoyed. How do people stay so calm? The incident regarding the young lady and the old lady on the train? If I were the young lady I'd snap and yell "give you sit already still kao pei kao bu?!" already.

Anyway, just gotten the news that my O lvl oral for higher chinese is this fucking friday. I don't plan on going for any of the hcl examinations so good fucking riddance bitches. I can't wait to drop out of that class.

Last Weekend of the Holidays.

School is resuming on Monday and I really really dread waking up in the mornings and all again... it's going to be a busy term for me and in all honesty... I do not want the year to end. I just don't want my friends to graduate lah!!!!!! I secretly wish they'd retain and spend another year with me hahahahaha nah I'm not that despicable, I really want them to do well for their national exams. Sigh...... STRESS!! 

And I know I've said this numerous times... but I still can't accept the friggin' fact that half of 2012 has passed already!!!!! *erases scary thoughts away* 

ANYHOO, spent my day at Bugis with this girl ;-) 

I realized that she is one of the few people whom I can completely be... well, myself with. I can be really unglamorous and look hideous and all and she wouldn't judge me. I can also be really crazy with her(today we danced like mad women behind 2 girls playing Dance Dance Revolution in the arcade hahahhahahahaha). Oh and she can even strut into my place in the morning while I'm still sleeping and wake me up just to tell me something or borrow something from me or whatever. I can be totally comfortable with her and I am soooooo grateful to have awesome friends whom I can be 100% me with. ♥

We had lunch at Shokudo which was awesome. Had the curry omu rice with grilled chicken and waffles with bananas & chocolate(I forgot it's name hahaha). Definitely going back next time! The service was great too. ;-) 

De to the licioussssssss!!!!!!!


Walked around the whole of bugis+ and then Topshop. So tempted to buy their pretty bralets... I need to start saving money. Remember when I said I want to try to spend less than $500 or something this holidays? Yep, plan failed. MISERABLY.

 Bought marshmallows to snack on because..... marshmallows are awesome.

And yay we chilled at frolick all the way until dinner time! 

Okay abrupt ending or maybe not because here's a pic of my improved wink! (LOL which is what my friends & followers on twitter told me)

xoxo

Sweet & Sour Pop Concert

"SWEET and SOUR POP is a live concert featuring a mashup of English and Chinese songs performed by YouTube stars Chen Yiyuan, Sam Driscoll (aka Sammmydee), Toh Yifan AKA Tzire, and Benjamin Hum!"

Thanks to my friend Benjamin(who's performing in his own concert lah hahaha) who gave me free tickets to his concert. Anyway you guys should check out his youtube channel: http://www.youtube.com/user/benjaminniehumm/videos! Might do a cover with him soon! 

So it was held at The Arts House which Mich & I took ages to find... I even wanted to take a cab there even though I was actually really close to the venue at that time. Gotta learn to be a little more enduring next time. But it's tough because of SG's unsympathetic weather... LE SIGH.

Oh and there was this lucky draw thing in the middle of the concert...... and when my name was called up I was like O.O WHAT? Hahahaha Benjamin was the one handing me the prize which was just exceedingly awkward. Ok let's not make me think about that moment... it's so embarrassing ;( 


After the concert (it was like 7 to 10pm) we went to MacD's and le duck came to join us. Pictures for the day ;-) 

 My "healthy" dinner... Who the hell am I kidding, nothing from MacD's is healthy....... and why do we still eat their food all the time anyway? Because 1) THEY'RE EVERYWHERE 2) Mcdelivery 3) 24 HOURS AVAILABLE

 I bet most of you have watched his "So Singaporean" vids right? Hahahaha he kept looking at his girlfriend whilst performing and he even winked at her for several times. So sweet!! And I thought guys like him in SG were extinct. Rare breed...... hahaha.

 YiYuan who was once from Campus Superstar!

 I took a pic of this boy because he was giving me the "da fuck?" face when I was snapping pictures... HAHAHAHA. But he was really cute though :P

 Benjamin(he was also from Campus Superstar) and his band. 

 Ok the lucky draw part let's skip this shall we.......

 Here's my other friend Yi Fan aka Tzire aka TheSingaporeanRapper who apparently owes me a drink.
And there's Ridhwan(ALSO from campus superstar hahaha) beside him! He called me before the concert and reminded me not to laugh at his bald head hahaha he's bald because he's acting in some army-related movie this year!

MacD's.................

I looked so tired :( And I hate my eyebags so much. I'm blogging at 3 in the morn fyi, need to start sleeping earlier AND DAMN SCHOOL IS STARTING IN 2 DAYS, *insert hokkien profanities here*

*wink* ;) although it's kinda fail................... xoxo

Need.

“A good laugh and a long sleep are the two best cures for anything.”

—	Irish Proverb

Le twin sister god forgotten to give.

Today was great. See that girl in the collage above? We've been mistaken for twins ever since we were 10. I choose to believe that we were twins in our prior lives, I swear, we have some weird telepathy thing going on, read on if you want to get what I mean.

So I woke up early to meet her and we travelled to Kallang for our kbox session! The lunch provided wasn't that bad. Anyway, we friggin' sang to our hearts' content and we talked about life, school and you get what I mean. Then we talked about things that have been bothering us... and our repugnant situations are totally similar. It's like, same shit, different people. We've been dealing with and going through the same troubles our whole secondary school lives hahahaha, come to think of it, it's pretty scary(and too much of a coincidence lah) which explains my theory of us being twins in our prior lives. HAHA.

Grabbed some starbucks and we headed over to her place for more long heart-to-hearts. We looked at our DRASTIC change between 2007 to 2012... please don't ask me to upload our old pics... wouldn't want to give you guys a chance to threaten/blackmail me when I become President in the future. HAHAHAHA ok that was lame. We basically chattered/gossiped the whole damn noon and evening away. Missed her so much and it is really nice to have someone to talk to. Especially when that person is going through the same thing as you. I like to keep a lot of things to myself ever since I was 13, all the stupid phases I've to go through and all the dumbass people I've to meet which is the reason why I have trust issues. Friendships like these are hard to come by.

Ending this picture with a dramatic picture of Tinglin's nightstand and bed(didn't take many nice pics with my cam as she was sunburnt from her sentosa trip yesterday hahaha).

xoxo

Transpiring tuesday.

Six more days until the start of the new semester. I wish we were given a longer holiday. Then again, nothing lasts forever. But still, it takes me by surprise that one month is passing by so quickly. I finally understood how precious time is. My top priority is to study and I hope I won't get distracted or do anything that would affect my studies as a result of peer pressure. I have a goal this year.

Anyway, met Michelle today and we went to Raffles City to have our lunch at Potato Depot. I love potatoes. All the mouthwatering food like french fries, hashbrowns, potato wedges and potato chips come from potatoes, right?? Are there any more places in Singapore that has the most wonderful baked potatoes(at a reasonable price, of course)? If you do know, please tell me!

Every meal(I had the one with the chicken in it; $9.90) comes with their soup of the day, a salad and a drink. It was yummers!! We explored around City Link Mall afterwards. I wanted to find this piercing aftercare spray called "H2Ocean" which many people were raving about online there but I called the so called shop that has it at the mall and the person told me I had the wrong number. Stupid...

Headed over to Bugis afterwards. Went to check out the Macadamia Natural Oil healing product for the hair(many many many gurus online have been doing reviews and going on about how amazing that product is) at SASA, I tried it onto my hair and it was indeed AMAZING. My hair went from dull and dry to silky and smooth... But I didn't purchase it in the end because 30 bucks for a teeny weeny bottle... I don't think it was worth it. I might try to hunt for it online! Hehe.

Had yummy froyo after that, every tuesdays and thursdays you'd get a buy 1 get 1 free offer from frolick! (good deals must share)

Mich and I took more pictures on our iPhones though, thank you Steve Jobs the iPhone is so bloody efficient. Hopefully the rumours about the iPhone 5 is true because I wanna get it(for better-quality photos taken by the front camera) ;-)

We went over to the 'old' Iluma(which is apparently called bugis+ now hahaha we were joking about how a the future malls in bugis would be called bugis minus, bugis mutiply, bugis division and all) and there was Sephora!!!! How can I not know about it and miss it the last time I went there wtf is this sorcery really. Gonna save up and buy the naked palette because I've been eyeing it forever and it's like... $80. It's selling at $50 in the US le sigh I love Singapore but the goods here can be so pricey sometimes I wish I lived in the US. Nonetheless it is extremely safe here and I still love SG very very very much ♥

Checked out some outlets like New Look and Pull&Bear, I'm starting to like bugis+. Hahaha Iluma was awfully boring compared to how it's like now. We went to Bugis Street and I'm starting to dislike going there. It's still an ah lian/ah beng paradise and some people there are just weird(it's not the way they look it's the way they ACT) if you wanna find cheap and pretty apparels, sure, but you have to look really hard for it. The only thing I got from there was an A7X t-shirt...... and the shop owners were a little rude. Anyhoo, we had a light dinner and went home afterwards because I was dead tired from the lack of sleep and................. I wanted to watch the 99th episode of Running Man. HEE. xo