bye-bye.

http://carrinelow.blogspot.com 

lazy.

because i have absolutely nothing better to do right now - lies, i should be studying - i decided to blog. i have been on hiatus for a looooong time and i apologize to my readers - if any of you are still reading this space, that is - because most of you would know that i am taking my o levels this year. big exam. national exam. and i certainly do not want to screw that up because my future's at stake man.. so i can't possibly afford to spend my time on the laptop and whatsoever.

failure is not an option.

oh well. no more time to waste. till then everyone. i'll try to update with recent/overdue pictures soon, probably the weekends.

20 things to do:

Placid.

this pretty much sums up my sunday morning.

Tranquil.

"Someone once asked me what it's like to be so sad.

It's like swimming, 
but in a dark black abyss, 
never sure of what's lurking below the waves.

It's like hearing a gunshot,
not knowing where it came from, 
but feeling the bullet pierce the air around you.

It's like trying to scream,
but no one is around,
to hear your pleas for help."

-

The past week had been a massive blur. One day it's the "first Saturday of 2013" and now it's Saturday again. I was sort of busy with my school work, trying my utmost to stay consistent. Even as I'm blogging right now, I'm practising questions on math while drinking a cup of coffee and downloading the latest episode of The Vampire Diaries.

Let's hope I'd have more time to just sit down in front of my laptop and chill out on mornings like these again. I can't imagine what it would be like in months to come if I'm already stressing myself out so badly already. Oh well, the only thing to look forward to is jogging & cycling next week and of course, Chinese New Year. I can't wait to see my extended family again and I would be lying if I said that I'm not looking forward to receiving red packets hahaha.

Pictures, pictures.

after a long day at school i'd make it a point to cuddle up with my pups for a bit before doing anything else. a dog is the only thing on earth that loves you more than he loves himself.

i think i took a pretty damn awesome picture. notice the contrast? 

i felt zero stress at all when i was there. i could stare at the waves crashing all day long. pity how singapore's full of ships, ships and ships though.

Until I have the time to blog again. ♥

Stay.

Ally gave this to me along with a dress and other pretty stuff hahaha.

I think I can live with drinking coffee bean/starbucks for the rest of my life. 

This was from Amelia, so pretty!! Some of us girls have this as well, it's like our little friendship bracelet, haven't had one of those since I was twelve?!

On the 10th when my friend Gean(who graduated last year) treated us to a scrumptious meal at Tampines.

Instagram top ;) Aq said she just had to buy this for me after seeing it when she was overseas.

Can't wait to start on these books!!!!! Bookworm problems... hahaha.

Just a little photo update and my current favourite song:

xoxo

Thoughts #1

I feel like a thin sheet of ice. You'd think it's "strong" on the surface, but even the slightest touch - or push - might cause it to break.

I feel like a special sheet of ice. Because even when I'm falling apart, I don't think anyone would even see a hint of crack on the surface. Not because they don't pay enough attention, but because I don't allow myself to be or even to feel vulnerable around people.

Maybe I should pen down stuff like that over here once in awhile. For multiple reasons actually, I could feel better after jotting down certain thoughts of mine and it's pretty beneficial for me to practice and do more writing. People always tell me I don't express how I feel all the time, how I seem to manage to keep everything to myself. Well, I'm going to try to start writing bits and fragments of whatever that's on my mind over here. Only bits and fragments, because I don't like the thought of the world knowing every little thing about my personal life.

I have been really cooped up with school work lately and it is only the 12th day of 2013. I need to find more time to be a real teenager. But I won't let myself slacken... 2 days ago I witnessed what it's like to receive your O level results. I went home thinking a lot that day. On that day, next year, I want to be crying tears of joy. I feel stressed. That is an understatement. I don't know what I'm feeling anymore :(